I feel a real sense of calm and peace right now. It’s appreciated. I haven’t felt this in a number of days. Weeks, maybe. I’ve finally come to terms with what I need to to, which is go back home. I’ve been dragging my feet about actually committing for the past couple weeks, despite a lot of messages from my higher power that it’s the right thing to do. I’m not sure if I’ll feel this way tomorrow. I hope this feeling stays with me. It always seems that the storm brews, I reach my breaking point and then there’s a surrender and things improve after that. I wish I didn’t have to reach the breaking point. That I was able to follow what in my heart I know is the right path without tearing myself up about it. I suppose that’s something I can strive towards. And really, I think it’s something I can accomplish.

I got an email today from a guy I don’t know that well, but I’ve been in contact with a bit since coming to Istanbul. He basically just asked how I was doing and mentioned that he had a strange dream about me last night. Or a dream with me in it, rather. It was nice to get. I’ve been struggling a lot these past few days. I like that there are people out there concerned even if they don’t know me that well. It really brightened my day and makes me think about the unexplainable.