I don’t know what I want. Maybe I want to tear my life to the ground. To burn it all down and to make it hurt.

I’ve been meeting with a new therapist and talking about things that make me sad. I’m not sure this is good for me. We are doing some EMDR stuff, but I’m not sure mucking around in all this is a good idea. I also don’t think not doing it is a good idea. I’ve had a lot coming up since being back in Mpls and I don’t want to continue running.

Does a heart that wants to be healed find healing? Is that something this world provides?

Gratitude List:

Things to think about

A nice bike ride today

Sadness