I am so tired. It has been a long week. I’ve struggled to get up in the morning and then I struggle to get to bed at night. I don’t anticipate that being too much of a problem tonight, but it’s past 11 pm and I really should have gotten myself in bed earlier than this.

I think I’ve done a really great job trying to stay positive at this job this week. Today was much better. I haven’t indulged that “I hate this” attitude that often and I’ve somehow managed to mostly avoid falling into the trap of just focusing on how much I don’t like work or being that guy who just hates it. I played that role for a long time at my last job and I don’t want to fall back into it in either my personal or professional life. For sure!

I meditated today, twice! Once this morning at work and then again at the meditation meeting tonight. It’s been really good! I’m off to my parents’ tomorrow which will be enjoyable. I kind of wish I could stick around Minneapolis and lay low, but it’ll be good for me to be surrounded by family again.

I’m grateful for this week. I’m grateful for all the things I’ve had to confront because of the new job. I’m grateful for this experience and what it’s teaching me because holy shit I’m learning a lot right now. And I feel like I’m being galvanized into action. I’m ready to pursue something. I’m ready for more than just lip-service and talking about how I want it. I’m ready for action and I’m finding the courage, motivation and energy needed for that action.

Hopefully there will be some good changes on the horizon. I’ve been having this recurring feeling – insight? that my self as I know it is going to be tremendously different soon. Like I’m in this transition, but that it’s not going to be protracted. In not too long I expect some major changes on an inner life. Who knows, maybe I’m headed to some deeper truth or understanding that’ll set me free. That sure would be nice!