I have had a busy day. I’ve found I’m back to that old game where I pack my schedule as full as humanly possible with stuff. Today I got up, biked to a yoga class at noon, biked about 20 miles around Minneapolis, came home and got ready to meet a friend, went out for coffee with her and then had a little bit of downtime before getting picked up for another yoga class this evening. I feel like I spent all day running around from one thing to the next. It’s nice because I’d so much rather be busy doing stuff, but there is a part of me that’s excited I’ll be going to my parents’ house for a few days this weekend and will be escaping this busy life I’ve constructed. It’s going to get even busier when I start this job in just a week. Oh God. The job!

I’ve enjoyed going to some yoga classes this past week. I like it. Yesterday I went to one and felt this real sense of calm and serenity when I left. It didn’t last too long, but it was a nice reprieve from what I usually feel. I think I should really plan to fit some yoga into my daily life now that I’m back. I’m not totally sure how that’s going to work, but I can make something happen. I should also be meditating, but that’s totally fallen away. I’d like to get back into it though. And I’m pretty sure I will.

I’m debating whether I should take a writing class that starts next week. I’d like to, but at the same time I feel like maybe I’d be better off not packing my schedule super tight so that I can ease back into working full time again. It’s going to be a major adjustment. On the one hand I’m really excited to have an income again. That’s going to be really nice, but it’s going to be so hard to show up to work everyday. I’m sure it won’t take long and I’ll be used to it again, but I also don’t really want to be used to it again. I need to figure out another way of supporting myself and something to occupy my time for the rest of my life. I still love art and thing that writing is something I would enjoy. I hope something along those lines falls into place. I’m willing to work towards them. I’m willing to try.

Gratitude List:

A beautiful morning and afternoon

Getting to see K after so many years

Enjoyable yoga classes