I’ve had a strange day. I woke up this morning feeling angry about the job I interviewed for last week, but haven’t heard back about. Like I just felt anger directed at that situation and for not getting chosen as someone to hire. I then wrote morning pages and went to CF. On my bike ride home I got a call and realized it was the people I interviewed with last week. I talked to another guy who I hadn’t spoken to briefly and then sent him a list of my references. I was hoping when I saw it was them calling that I was going to get offered the job, but I’m at least still in the running for it. And, I think they’ve probably narrowed it down quite a bit and plan to hire me. At least I hope so. I do know that he called one of my references today and spoke to him for just a moment. With any luck I’ll be hearing back from them in the next day or two and being offered the job. They want to start training people pretty soon so it sounds like the decision is going to be made pretty quickly from this point.

I really do want this job to work out. I’d like to be making money again and I like that I’d also be able to work from home. I also think I’d find the job to be ok and that I’d be pretty good at it. I could be wrong, but my impression so far has been that it would be a good place for me. At least for a while. I’ve had this song running through my head all day. Well, just part of it. The lyrics go “someday we’ll make a dream last.” It’s popped into my head more times than I can count all throughout the day. I have all of these dreams and I want so badly to work towards them, but until I alleviate myself from all of this financial stress I don’t think I’ll make much progress on anything else. This job would hopefully remove that stress and allow me to focus on other stuff. I’ve been laughing and joking around so much more these past few days and I’ve appreciated it so much. I forget how much my sense of humor means to me when it’s not there. It brings me great joy and I’m glad that it’s reappeared lately. I sure hope it sticks around.

Gratitude List:

Reconnecting with my entertaining sense of humor

A hopeful sign on the job front

Pork chops