I’m starting to wonder if it’s only me who doesn’t get it. Like everyone else I see has a job, makes money and doesn’t seem to be having a major life crisis about how pointless this all seems.

I don’t know where to go from here. I drew today which took up the bulk of my day. I think the drawing is finished, but I am not happy with how it turned out. I also cleaned the kitchen and went to CF. What I did not do, however, was look for jobs. I’m not sure how that whole situation is going to get resolved. I didn’t hear back from either of the jobs I interviewed for last week. I’d really like to get an income, even if it’s doing something terrifying – like putting myself back into a cubicle. Ugh.

Does everyone struggle this much with life? It feels like I’ve been banging my head against the wall for the past couple years, but still haven’t found any resolutions. I’m not sure I can keep this up for much longer. I feel like I’m basically done. Something needs to change. I’m just not confident in my ability to get it changed.

Gratitude List:

Drawing today – even though I don’t like it, I’m still glad I took the time to do it.

CF and another workout

Finally taking the time to start tracking what I’m eating