Today was much more productive than yesterday. I woke up this morning with a phone call from someone with an actual job – not one of those financial advisor, 100% commission type jobs. I spoke to her in the afternoon and found out more about the job. The pay isn’t terrible, but it’s only part time. And I’d be a contract worker so I wouldn’t be offered great benefits. The job is also only scheduled to last until June, but I figure if she offers it to me I’ll take it. It won’t be enough money to live on, but I’d be making twice what I’d get paid working some totally entry level type job so only working 20 hours a week should be ok. I hope that she offers me the position because I feel it would give me some breathing room. Some money is better than no money, plus it would get everyone off my back about finding a job.

I also applied for a few other positions. They were full time things at the same company, but there would be benefits and vacation days and all of those things that come with a full time job. I don’t think the jobs would be great, but they’d be better than nothing. I don’t view any of these things as starting a career. I view them as something to get me through the interim while I figure out a career. I still think I’d like to be doing something in the writing/comedy world, but I need some time to develop skills and contacts before that’s likely to happen. In the meantime I need an income so I can feed myself. In addition to speaking to this recruiter today about the position, I also applied for another one renting apartments. I’m going to speak to someone from the company on Friday. I worry that it would be like the commission jobs selling life insurance or whatever. It might not be, though. I’ll get more information on it on Friday and after speaking to the person on the phone I’ll hopefully be able to tell how much smoke they’re blowing up my ass. I don’t want to waste my time on a crappy sales job that is never going to actually pay me anything.

So today was much better than yesterday. I applied for a few jobs, I even spoke to someone who could offer me one. It’s not my dream job, but it’s better than nothing. It feels good to have had some movement on the job front. I feel like I’ve been getting nowhere fast and that’s a hard place to be. I’m still mulling over Chicago and whether I want to give that a try. I never realized how hard it is to support oneself. It’s not easy making money. I feel like I have plenty of talents and skills, but all the jobs I see aren’t willing to pay very much. I know in the end it’ll all work out. It always does.

Gratitude List:

Seeing some movement and some prospects as far as the jobs are concerned

Having a more productive day and feeling better about it

Making it to CF again and feeling like I’m in the zone as far as eating better and working out go