I slept in so late today. I got nearly 12 hours of sleep last night. My mood was not good after getting up. I hate sleeping that much because I always just feel dull and lethargic when I get that much sleep. I finally made it out of the apartment and went over to the Y to workout. Before going I got on my knees and prayed. It’s definitely something I should do more regularly. I prayed to not have more days where I felt the same as I did today. Tomorrow I’m going to make more of an effort to get up in the morning and be productive earlier in the day. I could go to a museum or do a number of other things. I just don’t want to get up super late in the day and then not do anything for a long time.

Tomorrow is going to be a better day. Who knows, maybe I’ll even meditate. Wouldn’t that be great?

Today I felt depressed. It’s not fun. I know that the reason I felt the way I did was in large part because I slept for so long, but if I was feeling better (not depressed) maybe I wouldn’t have slept so long. So really, if I went back on medication I might start sleeping less and feeling better about life. I’m a little overwhelmed right now with all the changes that are happening. Maybe I just bit off more than I can chew moving out to the East Coast. I like it out here, but considering I need to find a job and am returning from my time abroad and am having trouble figuring out what to do, it might have been better for me to settle back in Minnesota. I just don’t know. I am going to set an alarm for the morning and hopefully get up earlier than today. If I made it to the gym in the morning and then did something in the afternoon (like a museum) I think I’d feel better. Having a productive day would be really nice. Wish me luck KP! I feel like I need it.

Gratitude List:

Getting to witness an interesting conversation between two Buddhist teachers

The desire to change

A new day ahead of me tomorrow