I’m severely exhausted right now. I went to the Y and worked out earlier. They have 2 of the elliptical machines I like. I went for 2 hours which wasn’t very tough until about the last 10 minutes when I just really wanted to be done. The Y wasn’t very big, but I went in the early afternoon so there were very few people there. I’ll maybe go back tomorrow or else try to check out another location. It depends on how much time I have. I’ve got to get myself to M and M’s wedding in the afternoon so I’ll probably go back to the same Y because it’s easier. We’ll see though.

I went to the Reiki clinic tonight and enjoyed it. It was nice to practice on other people and to receive a treatment. It’s always nice to receive a treatment.

I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’m not so stressed about money, but it would be great to be making some. I also feel lost when it comes to a career. I want a career. I want something I can dedicate myself to. I want to be an expert at something. I feel like I’ve got nothing right now and that I’m not very close to finding anything more than I have right now. I feel like I’ll never really fit into this structure of work and careers that so many others seem to understand and not second guess. I know that something good will come along or that I’ll get to where I need to be, but it’s really tough being where I am now. It doesn’t feel like I’ll ever have anything more than I have right now, which is basically nothing.

Ok, I’m off to bed. I can’t wait to sleep. A’s bed is so comfortable, too.

Gratitude List:

Getting to work out today

Making progress on my body, even if it feels like it’s barely inching along at times

Getting to practice and receive a treatment tonight