The weekend retreat was worthwhile.  It wasn’t quite what I was expecting, but I’m glad I went and I definitely got some good information out of it.  I also met some really nice people.

Last night as I was laying in bed thinking about how I’d present my past and the effect it’s had on me, something strange happened.  I went in a different direction than I normally do.  I saw my recovery as less this amazing thing I did and more of an inevitable outcome of staying sober and working to enjoy my life.  I also was able to look at the struggle from a different perspective.  Instead of falling into the ‘it was so bad for so long’ line of thinking, I just reviewed it and thought ‘that’s it?’ ok, well it’s over now.  Today I’ve felt a lot more at peace with everything and like I’ve put a few things behind me.  I know longer feel like I have to do something with it.  I also don’t think it’ll have as much effect on me going forward.  I feel freer and at peace with my past.

Gratitude List:

A good weekend retreat

Making some new friends and having some nice conversations

Closure from something that’s been trailing me for a while now