I got to sleep in this morning which is always appreciated. I did my morning things and then went into the city. I met A and we got lunch and then went to MOMA. After we got lottery tickets to a show on Broadway. It was fun to see a show. All in all a good day.

The woman sitting next to us at the show was from Chicago so I talked to her for a little while. I still think I’ll end up out here, but I could swerve and go to Chicago. I have a much better support network here. A has been fun to hang out with and he’s living in the city. I could totally see more of him and do things if I was living out here. It’s fun to hang out with M and M, but it’s also nice to have a single, gay friend in the city as well. I don’t know how everything is going to fall into place, but it really seems like the NYC area is the right place for me. I figure I can give it a shot and if it doesn’t work out or I don’t like it I’ll just leave. It’s not going to be expensive for me to move out here – I’ll basically just pack up a suitcase and maybe some other things my mom can send to me. Or, I’ll fly back for Christmas with an empty suitcase and then when come back with it full of stuff from home. Really, when I think about it right now I can’t imagine moving to Chicago. I don’t know anyone there since C isn’t even there right now and I’d have to find a place to live, a job, and I’m not even sure I’d like it. This area would just be so much simpler.

I had intended on staying in NJ tomorrow, but I’m feeling this push from myself to go into the city and make the most of my limited time out here. I know I’ll be back in just a few weeks, but I want to go into the city and do as much as possible now. A and I might try to get tickets to another show tomorrow. It would be really fun to go. I’m going to see how I Feel in the afternoon about whether I want to take the train into the city. I went the last two days and I know I’ll be going tomorrow. It would be fun. There are still a few things I’d really like to do in the city, like walk around Central Park and check out The Met.

Gratitude List:
Finding some clarity surrounding my future plans
Feeling much more like my old self
Getting to hang out with fun friends and laugh a lot