It’s really strange to think that in less than 4 hours I’ll be in a taxi on the way to the airport. The day of traveling I have ahead of me isn’t going to be a lot of fun, but I’ll get through it and when it’s done I’ll be at M and M’s house in NJ. The next bed I sleep in will be in the United States at a very good friend’s house.

I’m excited to see them. M is great and a natural therapist. It’ll be helpful to see her and have her assistance processing this experience I’ve had abroad as well as get her advice on what to do going forward. She always has something to say about that.

I’m trying to work on trust. I know that my higher power will guide and direct me. I haven’t felt a strong connection with my higher power lately – or at least not as strong as in the past. I also haven’t been meditating at all lately. I really want to start doing that again regularly. I love meditating, but have fallen out of the habit of doing it again.

I suppose I should get to bed. I’ve got an early start tomorrow and as it is right now will only have a couple hours to sleep before I have to get up, shower and get to the airport. I’ve got well over 20 hours of travel time ahead of me. I also haven’t really figured out how I’m going to do it when I get to NYC. I think I’ll maybe just take the train all the way to Roselle, but then I also figure when I land and I’ve been traveling for over 20 hours at that point lugging my suitcase and backpack into the city on a train and doing that might be more than I can handle. If that proves to be the case I’ll take a shuttle of some kind to Newark and see if M and M can pick me up from EWR. That would be a pretty easy way to do it.

Gratitude List:
The strength and courage to go back to the states and pursue something else
A wonderful, difficult, fun, depressing time abroad
Trust and faith in a power greater than myself