I’m so done with this place. I don’t want to be in India anymore. I’m exhausted, I don’t feel well and I certainly don’t want to mess with traveling around this country anymore.

I have options. It’s good to remind myself of that. I’ve pretty much decided I’m going to totally scrap the Rishikesh plan. I will stay in Varanasi like planned, but then go to Delhi and not continue on to Rishikesh. I could rent a hotel room in Delhi and hole up in it for a while. Or, I could take the train back and then see if I can get the train to Udaipur and hang out there. I’d really just like to be somewhere that’s relaxed and not a difficult place to travel. I’m also going to see what it would cost to change my flight and fly back early. I don’t think I’ll decide to do that, but it’s an option worth exploring. I don’t want to travel around this country anymore. That much I know for sure.

I’m hoping that tomorrow I wake up with a better view on everything. I can still make the most of my time here. I don’t feel like going out or being in the city at all anymore, but there are some places I should see in Varanasi before leaving. I booked a morning sunrise boat for Friday morning. That should be pretty neat.

Gratitude List:
Having a room with air-conditioning
Getting one step closer to leaving this place
Knowing when it’s time to just throw in the towel