I’m going trekking tomorrow.  We are going to trek to the Annapurna Base Camp.  It will most likely take us 6-7 days to do.  I’m really excited.  I just don’t want to sit around and not do anything anymore.  I want to be busy.  I feel like I have a lot hanging over my head right now in terms of figuring what my next steps will be that when I’m not busy I feel like I’m just wasting time.

I’ve spent the last few days downloading podcasts.  They take forever to download and I know the internet will probably be pretty nonexistent on the trek so I wanted to download as many as possible before going.  I’m starting to feel like a hoarder.

After trekking I’ll have a couple days of sitting around Pokhara before heading back to Kathmandu to finish up the Indian visa stuff.  I’m really excited about moving on.  I packed up everything tonight and moved my large suitcase to the guesthouse I stayed in when I first got here.  I’ve only been here a month, but this place has started to feel like home. It wasn’t a lot of fun to be packing things up again.  I hate having to do that, especially considering the amount of stuff I have.  Blergh.  My suitcase is super full and that’s not super fun.  I plan to dump a few of the things before leaving Pokhara which will help, but it’s still going to be super heavy.  I’m sick of dragging this stuff all around.  Oh well.  I’ll be flying to Delhi and leaving the suitcase there while I travel around with just a backpack.  That won’t be too bad.  And after that it’ll just be another flight back to the US so I really won’t have to lug it around for too much longer.

It’s hot here.  It’s been hot and humid all day.  It sounds like it’s finally starting to rain outside which is great because I really, really don’t want to try to sleep with it this hot and humid.  The rain should at least help cool it down and make the air a little less humid.

It’s strange to think this is my last night sleeping in this apartment.  I walked around the lake for a while today.  It was nice.  It sure is beautiful here.  I’m going to miss it, despite not being super happy while I was here.  Funny how that works.

I was listening to a podcast yesterday and the woman was describing her experience in activism and coming to the conclusion that it was “the camp she belonged to” or something like that.  I keep thinking about that in regards to my own life.  I’ve spent the last year and a half pretty intensely trying to develop a relationship with a higher power and understanding spirituality at a deeper level.  Right now I’ve got about 14 podcasts on the subject on my phone.  I think it’s pretty clear what camp I belong to.  It’s good information to have, but I still don’t know quite where it will lead me.  I’d really like someone to come in and remove much of the uncertainty of my current and future life, but I realize that’s not going to happen.  And honestly, if it did I probably wouldn’t like it much.  It’s kind of cool I guess to not know where life is going to take me.  Scary, yes, but pretty awesome, too. There are tons of scenarios that could play out.  I’m excited to see which one finally does.  I’m still hopeful that it’s going to be an awesome ride!

Gratitude List:

Moving on from Pokhara, even if it’s happening pretty slowly

Becoming one step closer to home

A super beautiful week of trekking ahead of me