I spent a good chunk of time tonight trying to get going on a posting website that pays to post comments on blogs and forums.  It took me quite a while to complete the example posts.  I also wrote way more than I’d be willing to write if I’m only getting 8 cents for each post.  Tomorrow I am going to sign up for some of the websites and forums and start posting to see how many points I can even get.  I think it’s basically a scam, but I haven’t done anything or tried anything to make money since I got here and this was the easiest route to doing that I could find.  I imagine after tomorrow I’ll decide it’s a scam and never go back to the site.  I’m not going to work for $2/hour.  I think I’m much better than that.  Hopefully this will provide me with some motivation to start getting more serious about this.  If I can figure out an income I could stay here a while.  I think I’ll still choose to leave in two weeks, but really this would be a nice place to try to figure it out.

I got together with a Nepali guy today that I met from facebook.  He was nice and we went to a museum about the mountains.  We then came back to my apartment and talked for a while before messing around. It wasn’t quite what I wanted and, to be quite honest, I’m not that interested in seeing him again.  

I just read about Joan Rivers.  How sad.  It really makes me reflect on my own life.  I don’t want to spin my wheels forever.  I really don’t think I’d like to be famous or anything, but I want to at least be good at something and feel like I’ve contributed.  Joan Rivers accomplished both of those things.  I can’t help but reflect on her death with that in mind.  I feel like it’s time I start working towards something more.  I know I can get there even if the path is unclear at this time.  I’d love to spend the rest of my life creating – art or stories.  Either would be amazing.  I need to get started on making that a reality.

I have an amazing life in front of me.  It could go off in a multitude of different directions.  I’m talented in so many amazing ways and even more talents will come to light once I start exploring them.  I just have to be patient and trust that everything is working out for the best.  

Gratitude List:

Spending time pursuing something I’ve wanted to pursue for a while – even if my efforts prove to be mostly fruitless

Doing something more today than usual

Making a new friend