My day was, not surprisingly, quite uneventful.  When I woke up this morning my first thought was “what a wonderful day to go for a hike.”  After morning pages, meditating for a little while (with a nap, afterwards, of course) and some drawing I found it to be well into the afternoon.  As a result, the hike never happened.  When I left to eat dinner I ended up buying a hat which I’ve been meaning to do.  I feel like I have a better chance tomorrow since I’ll be able to leave the house prepared to hike.  Today I couldn’t because there was no way I was going to spend that much time in the direct sun (even with sunscreen!).  I know that I would feel so much better if I got some exercise.  Now that it’s past 1 am I highly doubt that the morning yoga class is going to happen.  

I started using facebook with a stupid account that doesn’t have my real name because someone told me that’s how the gay guys in Nepal meet.  Sure enough, there are a few facebook groups dedicated to gay guys in Nepal.  I’ve now tried joining all of them, but have only been added in one group.  I chatted with a couple guys earlier tonight.  I’m not really sure I’m up for the struggle of meeting any guys.  It also seems to be primarily focused on hooking up.  I’d love to mess around with a hot, Nepali guy, but I’m not willing to jump right into bed with one until I feel comfortable.  Who knows, though.  Maybe I’ll be able to meet someone for coffee or dinner.  

Today was, to be honest, not the greatest day I’ve ever had.  I found myself crying this morning.  I think I’m processing through some things and releasing them.  I figure the crying was a good thing.  I don’t feel depressed and afterwards I felt better.  I don’t feel stuck, anyway, so that’s good.

I ran across a very large, gross cockroach in the sink this evening.  I tried to shoe it into the garbage can so that I could let it go outside, but the cockroach was having none of that.  It ran away and then I lost it underneath the stove.  Blergh.  When I went back into the kitchen later on there were two cockroaches.  I managed to smash one and throw it outside, but the other got away.  I don’t like the idea of there being a massive cockroach inside even if it is in the other room.  I’ll probably go looking for it before bed in the hopes that I can smash it and be done with them.  Ugh, I really don’t like cockroaches.

I really like the drawing that I completed today.  Well, it’s mostly complete anyway.  It still feels a little unfinished.  And it also feels a little cookie cutter.  Boring.  Like it’s missing something – that it has no pizzazz. I might wake up in the morning and see something I want to add, but for the most part I think I’m done and it’s going on the wall.  It’s different than my other drawings.  I like it, though.  Like my technique is changing and evolving.  I still like the other ones, but they feel more amateurish than this one does.  It’s nice to see progress when it comes to drawing.

Tomorrow is going to be an absolutely fantastic day.  I am going to start making a point of getting out of this apartment earlier.  I can’t get up and then just bum around here all day.  It makes me crazy.  I spent 50 minutes writing morning pages this morning because I wrote backwards and right handed.  After, if I meditate, shower and whatever else the I’m already 3 hours into the day before I’ve even thought about leaving my apartment.  I need to work at becoming more efficient in the morning so those things flow and I can get out early enough to grab some lunch or go for a hike before I start to feel like I’m losing my mind.  

And with that I’m off to bed.  I think tomorrow will be really cool.  I think the hat and I will go on a hike.  Yay!