H is here right now.  He’s laying in the bed next to me.  We just finished watching a movie on my laptop.  A big part of me wishes he would go downstairs to his apartment so that I can be alone.

I’ve hung out with him a lot today.  I feel like I could use a break.  It’s been nice and I’ve enjoyed being around him, but I’m not used to being around people so much and I definitely do like my space.  

We went to a Lebanese restaurant earlier tonight.  The food was good.  Neither of us brought our umbrellas, so when it started raining we weren’t happy.  We tried to locate one at the restaurant we could borrow, but had not luck.  The restaurant was way at the end of the road in the hippy part of town which is a bit of a walk from the apartment.  When we started walking back the rain wasn’t falling too hard. After not long it started raining much, much harder.  We ran for a while to make it back quicker.  It was no small feat running in the fake sandals I bought in Thailand last year.   Most of the roads are not well paved so when it starts to rain they turn into muddy messes.  The water accumulates in large pools and getting around (especially in sandals) is difficult.  Thankfully we made it home ok.  

I’m excited to sleep in tomorrow and relax.  I like spending time with H.  A lot of the problem right now is that I feel so fat and so gross about my body I don’t want anyone touching me.  It’s so uncomfortable to have him touch my body.  I like having sex and want to mess around, but I also really don’t want to be naked around anyone.  I just feel so gross about how I look and the amount of weight I’ve gained.  Blergh.  H mentioned he knows of a gym around our apartment building so I’m hoping to check that out tomorrow.  I think it’s about $15 to join for a month.  Definitely worth it if they have some equipment.  It would be great if they had a treadmill or eliptical machine, but I’m not holding my breath.

Gratitude List:

Spending time with a cute guy

Waking up to a beautiful view

Getting settled in to life in Nepal