I enjoyed my second to last day in Istanbul. I’ve been a little stressed about leaving. I realize this has less to do with leaving and more to do with the uncertainty of the situation I’ll find myself in once I reach Nepal. A part of me is beyond excited to go and has really high hopes for the meditation program. Another part of me wants to sit and eat chocolate, cookies and Turkish candy all day long to make myself feel better about this situation. Actually, that sounds very much like how tonight went. Hmm.

Nepal is going to be amazing. And, if I choose, it can be a short trip as well. Just because I plan to get a 3 month visa doesn’t mean I need to stay there for 3 months. Although, if I like it I certainly could.

I still feel like I’m 32 years old and that my life doesn’t have any direction. It’s a really difficult place to be. I don’t have a career or any idea how I’m going to meaningfully support myself in the long run. I’m really hoping Nepal can provide some clear view of the situation ahead and what I want to pursue. I have so many interests it’s difficult to make a decision.