I really am not excited about teaching in the morning. Last week my student said that he wouldn’t be able to make it which is one of few reasons I decided to work this week. Oh well. It’ll be my last day teaching him and the last day I have that’s terrible with the hours. I’ll get up and go in the morning and then come back and take a nap right afterwards. I’m not really prepared for class, but I’ll have a little time to throw something together. I might get lucky and find that he cancels in the morning. That would be amazing!

I found myself walking around Besiktas tonight with no purpose or destination. There were so many people out, together, eating dinner this evening. I bought some chocolate stuff and sat by the water for a little bit and happened to see some fireworks. I then went to an Asian restaurant I’ve walked by a bunch of times without realizing it was not Turkish food. It wasn’t as good as the food I ate in Thailand, China or Japan, but I enjoyed it nonetheless.

I’ve got to get this eating under control. I’ve gotten in the habit of going on sugar binges again. Tonight was pretty bad. I ate a shitload of sugar and then felt super gross about myself. I even purged which is not something I’ve done in a really long time. I didn’t feel super terrible about doing it afterwards like I thought I would, but it’s certainly not something I want to do again. I am going to try to make tomorrow a sugar/candy free day. I just don’t want to do it anymore.

And now it’s nearly 1 am. I’ve been back for a couple hours not doing anything but wasting time online. I’ve got to get up in like 5 hours to get to work for my 8 am class…. Blergh. I should go to bed.