My class this evening cancelled which I didn’t mind at all. I went into the school to prepare for my class tomorrow morning. I didn’t spend a lot of time getting ready for it, but that’s ok. I’ve got some stuff to do. I’m really glad I’ll be done with teaching this week. I have no intention of trying to do this ever again. I figure I gave teaching adults a try and now I’ll be done. It’s clearly not for me. I think that even if the hours were better, I still wouldn’t like teaching much. It’s ok though. I’ll find something more suited to my likes and abilities eventually. I just have to give it time. Tomorrow I’ll have a busy day, but the rest of this week will be much more relaxed. Thursday, my other busy teaching day, has already cancelled 2 of my 3 classes. I’m definitely not sad about that. I will miss the students as I like most of them, but doing tailor-made courses is a pain in the ass.

I told my mom I’m thinking about going to Nepal. I’m having second thoughts about it now. I mean it would be awesome and I think I’d really like it, but I’m not convinced I’m up for it. She also was under the impression I’d be there for a couple weeks, not that I’m thinking about just staying gone for the next few months. I spoke to my cousin last night and found out a little more about the volunteer work he did there. I’m hoping to get the name and contact of someone to try to coordinate something with that. It would be great to do some volunteer work and be busy. I could also find a meditation/yoga retreat of some kind to do. I just did a google search and saw a couple, but they appear to be around $50/day which doesn’t thrill me. I don’t really want something geared towards the wealthy tourist who’s off to find him or herself. I have a couple people I can reach out to and ask some advice. I might be better off pursuing that in India, too. I’m going to send a friend in NYC an email asking if she has any advice. I’m not sure if she’s been to Nepal or India, but my guess is she knows someone who has who can maybe give me some advice. It would be pretty awesome to do some kind of extended retreat. Hmm.

I think I’m up for the Nepal/India adventure. And really, if I don’t like it I can always fly to Thailand or Cambodia and bum around there for a month before going back to the US. There are lots and lots of options.

I was texting with a friend of mine who also teaches at the school where I’m working this evening. I sent her a message that I found to be really funny. It was a random idea that I had. Or, rather, it was a random idea I had because of the conversation we were having. It felt great to reconnect with my old sense of humor. I miss it. It also made me think about how much I’d like to be writing short stories. This would make an awesome, strange, possibly rambling short story of some kind. Now if only I actually sat down to write it… wouldn’t that be a miracle.

Ok, time to get to bed. I’ve got to get up so early in the morning and I should really prepare some more for class so getting to school a little early would be a really, really good idea. I don’t want to have to wing it. I’m going to miss this student. He’s a good guy.

One other thing – I’ve been thinking more about the writing and what exactly my dreams are. I’ve also been thinking about my past mental health history – both what it taught me and how it’s influenced my life. I’m not sure I can just walk away from that without doing something constructive with it all. I’ve got a wealth of experience because of it. I’ve also got a story to tell. I know that it’s telling would significantly help me, but it could also help other people, too. Things to think about, I suppose.