I enjoyed my final day in Antalya. I had another lazy(ish) morning. I actually woke up around 9 am though and have been awake ever since. I didn’t get out of bed right away because I seldom do, but I did wake up then. I ate breakfast, meditated and then went to the beach. I walked forever all along the beach. I had intended on finding a nice spot where I could rent a beach chair and read a book in the shade of an umbrella, but all of those spots were playing loud music so I just kept walking. I finally walked far enough down the beach that there were nearly no people. It was nice. I swam quite a bit, laid in the sand and listened to podcasts while taking in the beautiful mountain views. I stuck around for a really long time before walking back and grabbing the tram.

My mood and outlook was much better today than it has been. I think part of the reason why is because I didn’t allow myself to hit the snooze button for hours on end this morning. I really, really need to try to keep up that habit going forward. I hate having days where I feel hopeless and I’ve certainly been able to link those more to days that I don’t get up in the morning.

I’m excited to go back to Istanbul. It’s been fun being in Antalya these last few days, but it’ll be nice to be back. I emailed the woman this morning about the teaching position and she said that she was hoping to send me an offer letter later today, but I didn’t see anything come through from her. I just don’t quite know what to make of it. Hopefully she’ll send the letter tomorrow. If I haven’t seen it come through by the time I’m back in Istanbul I’ll start applying for other jobs as well. This might be a sign that this position isn’t the right one for me. Usually when things don’t come through easily and I start fretting over them it later turns out that it wasn’t a great opportunity anyway. I should maybe look into other jobs and just let this one pass. I’ll sleep on it and ask Liz for advice tomorrow.

I have a huge blister on my toe and it hurts like hell. I’ve also got to get up quite early in the morning. I am still not totally sure how I’m going to get back to the airport to catch my flight. I think I’ll try to retrace my steps back the way I came when I got here. The problem is I just sort of got off the bus when I saw it would only take me 1/2 hour to walk to the pension. I think I can make my way back, but it’s unlikely to be fun with how my toe feels when I walk. It’s pretty painful to walk a long distance, although I’ve walked some really long distances on it today. Maybe it’ll feel better tomorrow anyway.

I’m also not excited that it’s nearly 2 am now and I’ve got to get up in about 4 hours. It’ll be ok though. I’ll set an alarm and then wake up easily enough. I want to leave here by 7 am because I think that should be plenty of time to make it to the airport. I sure hope, anyway. Worst case scenario if I can’t find the bus stop that I need I’ll just flag down a cab and get to the airport that way. It’ll be more expensive, but better than missing my flight.