I need to get my eating under control. I’ve been eating a lot and don’t feel good about my weight right now. I’d love to start exercising with more regularity and lose some weight. I miss feeling desirable. I don’t remember the last time I felt attractive and confident.

I’m horny and need to mess around. There are hot Turkish guys everywhere. Everywhere! I think tomorrow I’m going to go to ‘cinema.’ It could be a very interesting experience. I hope it is anyway.

I got to Antalya earlier tonight. I found the pension right as the sun was setting. It’s a pretty city at night – especially the old city. I’m excited to see more of it during the day. From what I saw before the sun went down tonight it is very beautiful.

I called K from the airport and told him I won’t be able to continue working for his school. He didn’t ask me too many questions. I told him I’d found another job and that I was going to pursue that. I expected him to ask more questions and want more details on everything, but he was pretty quick to say ok and leave it at that. I don’t know why I made it out to be such a big deal. Telling him has been hanging over my head for the last couple of days. I’m grateful to have finally taken care of that.

I’m off to bed now. I’ll waked up in the morning and have my first full day in Antalya. I’m not really sure what I’ll do. It’ll probably involve a lot of walking around and maybe some fooling around. Perhaps a lot of fooling around. Who knows….