Oh shit, I just realized that I have to send C in Germany 5 pages by Thursday. Or, did we say on Thursday? Now I can’t remember. I should be fine if I email it to her on Thursday. I’ll work on 5 pages tomorrow. I should have plenty of time.

I’m feeling overwhelmed. Not super overwhelmed, but enough that it’s keeping me from being able to enjoy myself because I feel like there’s this thing, this unresolved something that even though I’m not focused on won’t allow me to truly enjoy whatever moment I’m currently in. It’s frustrating. I don’t know how to escape this feeling. I mean really, I’m not in that terrible of a position. I’ll have some money coming in soon and I’ve got the whole week free. It’s really cool to have the whole week free. I’m excited about that.

I met a guy tonight who I’ve been chatting with for a while. A week or two ago I told him we’d might as well just call off meeting altogether. He messaged me today and I responded. We got dinner and then dessert twice. I enjoyed hanging out with him, but I’m not interested in dating him. He’s not really my type. Plus, I feel like I’m beluga whale heavy right now which makes dating off limits.

Tomorrow is going to be a good day. Like a super awesome great day! Plus, tomorrow is Reiki share day. Yay! It’ll be happening while I sleep and then in the morning I’ll participate. How awesome is that? I’m super excited about it. I also saw a Reiki place in Kadikoy I’d like to check out. I plan to do that soon.

This money thing is just so annoying because I feel like all the paths I know I could use towards gaining an income don’t appeal to me. And not only do they not appeal to me, I don’t feel like I could even bear to do them for even a short period. I just can’t anymore. I feel a real aversion to any of them. I hope that means another path will be presented and I’ll be able to take advantage of that. I mean really, a lot of doors have closed. Another has to be opening shortly, right?