I had a nice, relaxing day. I slept in for a long time this morning. I sometimes feel guilty about sleeping in super late, but I’ve been getting up so early and running all around lately that taking today and sleeping in was a wise decision. I’m sleepy again, now, and will probably go to bed soon. Tomorrow I’m going to try to get up a little earlier than today. It would be nice to get something done in the morning and feel like I’m being productive. I really want to apply for this teaching position that was listed online. I have to update my resume and figure out references. I could just skip the references for now, but the add asks for them so I should probably include some. The school has a good reputation and they are looking for teachers with a business background to start teaching business English. I would like to gain some experience teaching business English because I think it could be a lucrative way of making money teaching private lessons. I also spoke to a guy after the meeting tonight who mentioned that he will probably be leaving Istanbul because of the new residence permit requirements that apparently make it much more difficult to obtain a residence permit.

Everything will get worked out. I just need to give it time. I’m going to share my story at a meeting tomorrow and I’m nervous about it. I was asked at the meeting on Thursday and said that I would. I haven’t told my story very often and it’s been a long time since I did. I will practice tonight before going to bed and then will work on it some more tomorrow. I don’t find talking in front of groups super easily and generally don’t share for long periods of time. I would like it to be at least a little thought out when I share and hopefully not just inane rambling. Hmm.

I’m also nervous about this teaching job that I’m going to be starting soon. I called the guy from the program today and told him I’m not going to be able to work at all during the week. I’m not ready to change everything and move to the Asian side for this job. It doesn’t make sense that I would spend an hour commuting to the school to work 2 hours and then have another hour commute home. If I like it and want to continue working there I’d consider moving to the Asian side and then picking up some hours during the week, but right now I want to see if I like teaching. I don’t really want to teach. I’d rather get a better job that paid me more, but teaching is all I seem to be very qualified to do here. I don’t know, maybe I’d be better off avoiding teaching at all and committing myself to trying to find something else. My gut says that I’m not going to want to start teaching a full time job with a lot of hours. A couple of people have warned me about the guy who offered me the job as well. He’s pretty harmless, but has been described as a ‘bulldozer.’ I can totally see that. He said it was fine “for now” that I don’t teach during the week, but I have a feeling it’s going to come up again pretty soon and I’ll have to deal with it then. I guess I’ll just take it as it comes.