I started noticing butterflies this morning. Not actual living butterflies, but a butterfly pendant or a drawing on something. This occurred throughout the entire day. I’d randomly see a butterfly on a poster or on someone’s shirt and take notice of it. I don’t often notice butterflies.

It reminded me of being in DC last year. I remember I started to see butterflies and even went to an Imax theater show at the natural history museum that was all about butterflies. At the time I was thinking about how they start from a caterpillar and then change into butterflies. I also remember that at the time I thought I was finally coming out of my cocoon and turning into something really beautiful.

I’m grateful for the change in my attitude and outlook in order to get to today. I’m emerging from the dark cocoon of the last year. I don’t mean to say that the last year has been bad by any means, it’s actually been really great – hard at times, but filled with growth. It has been hard, though, as I have worked through and let go a lot of the negative emotional things from the past I’ve been carrying around with me. It’s great to unburden myself of a lot of that stuff.

I also feel like I’m emerging because my sense of humor is coming back. I’m starting to feel a lot more like my old, joking, smartass self. It’s great! I’ve really missed not having my sense of humor and I don’t ever want to lose it again.

I feel happy and joyous right now. I like feeling this way. Like my problems aren’t insurmountable and that I’ll figure everything out. I do believe that. I hope I can hang on to this feeling and maybe even develop it into something further.