Wanting something beautiful and having something beautiful are different things. What if I could quit wanting by realizing what it is I actually have? There is beauty in the world all around me; it’s everywhere! When I choose to focus on the beauty and really see the beauty it fills my mind. When I choose to see the ugliness, despair and problems all around me (that tend to be mostly contrived) I can’t see through them to the beauty that lies just beyond.

Today was a beautiful day. It wasn’t quite what I wanted and not everything went perfectly, but it really was a beautiful day. It was filled with many things that make me happy. One of which was spending time with some great people in a city I love. I hope that I can remain present to that fact as the days go by. I still don’t have any idea how I’m going to support myself and my life in this wonderful city filled with great people, but as long as I maintain my focus on the beauty all around me I shouldn’t have to worry about it.

I hope I can manage to do that.