I had an interesting day today. I got up early(ish), wrote morning pages and meditated. I sat for 40 minutes and afterwards laid down to practice Reiki for a few minutes and basically ended up napping for like 2 hours or so. By the time the afternoon rolled around my mood was strange (read: not great). While walking to the meeting I contemplated whether I was just in some slow decline into complete, utter madness, but that it was hard to notice because the decline was slower than normal. In the past it’s always been a pretty quick deal.

I don’t think I’m really going crazy. I mean I could be, but I don’t think so. I’m just stressed out with this current situation. And rightfully so, this is a stressful situation I’ve put myself into. Another thing I’m struggling with, again, is simply the loneliness. I’m in another new place where I don’t have any friends and I’ve been spending a lot of time by myself not interacting with other people. That in itself is enough to make me go a little nutty. The meeting tonight was a godsend. I felt much, much better after the meeting. I’m going to meet a girl from NY tomorrow and go to the meeting on the Asian side of the city. It’ll be nice.

All in all things are going well. I’ve got to make some friends and get an outlet of some kind. It’s tough having so much free time and not a great plan. I think I could figure out the income thing, but I’ve got to do some more research and really put in some time trying to figure out a job.

I also go through periods where it feels like I slip into an energy of sorts. It’s like the universe pulls me in and everything at once has meaning. I’m not sure what that’s all about. It feels like I’m connected to something in a way I’ve either not been before or in a way I simply haven’t noticed or felt before. I have no idea where that’s headed, but it’ll be interesting to find out. Maybe I’ll find love again. Wouldn’t that be a treat.