I know I can make it through these final two weeks of work. I need to try harder to maintain a positive attitude and enjoy the last few classes that I’m going to teach. I will get through it and if I manage to enjoy my final days teaching that would be all the better.

For a long time I had this running idea that I’d write a book of some kind and that if I really poured my heart and soul into it I could even get it published and possibly make enough money that I’d have the financial freedom I’ve craved for what seems like my entire life. I realized a couple months back that I was using the book idea as a lottery ticket of sorts and the latest, and slightly sneaky, reincarnation of the life-will-be-better-when game. I pushed the book out of my mind and haven’t really thought much about it since.

I’ve been pretty focused on drawing and spending much of my free time drawing. I’d much rather draw than try to write, which may be nothing more than an avoidance tactic. I do love drawing, though. And I like seeing the drawings come into form and I also love seeing the progression in the drawings that I’m able to complete. They are certainly getting better and each one I seem to like more than the last. That’s a lot of fun. I hope the trend continues.

The last few days, the idea of this book has been popping back into my head. I’ve also been seeing things that remind me of it and that I need to try to write it. If nothing else, it would be a good way to cleanse my soul. I’m not sure if it’ll happen, but I have to try. I have a story to tell and I think I could compellingly tell it if I tried.

“What you share with the world is what it keeps of you.” Noah and the Whale.