I had a really fun day today. I went to a place called 5 dragons pools with 2 other teachers. One of them I’d never met before. We grilled and then hiked around the mountains. The scenery was really beautiful. I’m grateful they invited me and that I decided to go. What a fun day! They both also got a bit sloppy drunk, but that was fun too. haven’t been around drunk people like that for a while.

I heard back from my DOS today. I sent him a pretty bitchy email and accused him of not following the contract which I should not have done. I’ve had to apologize twice in the past few days for being an asshole. I should have realized at the time I was misreading that situation, but I didn’t. I will say that I had good reason for thinking he was letting me go before I wanted to be let go. Next time I hopefully won’t let my imagine get the better of me and will approach it in a more professional manner. I sent an apology and if he’s still mad there’s not a whole lot I can do. I also offered to stay until mid-May if the school wants me to. I have a feeling they’re going to let me be done at the end of April. I hope that’s how it works out, but the money from working in May would be nice, too, so however it works out I’ll take it.

While buying food to grill this morning I had an interesting experience. There is so much uncertainty in my future. I had one of those moments where I realized how much is changing and all that is going on. I feel in the past I would have connected with a lot of anxiety and stress. Instead I felt this wonderful, intense feeling of joy. It was awesome. I’m not used to having anything like that happen. It just felt good and I felt excited about the future and what’s in store even with all the uncertainty. It was a really great feeling.