I still haven’t been able to determine my last day of work. I really only started trying to figure it out yesterday, but I’m getting some conflicting information and the person who can correct all that is unavailable right now. I’m hoping to wake up tomorrow to an email with some more definitive information. Once I know when I’ll be done I can start making other arrangements. It’s hard to do much without it right now.

I’m super tired. I took 1/2 a magnesium tablet and feel more than ready to sleep. I’m also struggling a lot today with my body image. It’s been over a month now that I’ve gotten more serious about improving things and today it hasn’t even felt like I’ve made any progress on that front. It’s frustrating. I feel excessively uncomfortable right now and want to hide and cover up with sweatshirts. I’m not going to be able to do that much longer – it’s getting much warmer here. I feel like I should have been able to make more progress by now, but I guess I just have to be patient. It’s also quite possible that something I’m eating (as in chemicals or a reaction my body is having to something bad – MSG?) could be causing a lot of the problems with losing weight and feeling more positive about my body image. I suppose I could start keeping a journal of everything I eat. I don’t think I’m overeating, but it’s possible I am. Today I don’t think I really at that much. I guess I can always hold out hope that once I leave mainland China it’ll all work out.

I felt like writing this morning, but was busy doing all the things I do in the morning – meditating, morning pages, cooking lunch, etc. I didn’t have any time to write this morning and this evening I didn’t feel much like writing anything. I hope that desire strikes again soon. I’d like to start churning out some short stories. That would be fun!