I really like updating KP again every day. It’s been a very welcome addition to my life.

I had an amazing conversation with C today. I’m extremely grateful we got to connect. We’ve been trying to for the past few weeks, it just hasn’t worked out. We got to talk for an hour and a half and it was so great. I’m grateful to have such an amazing person like her in my life even if we don’t get to connect as often as we used to. I’m sure our paths will cross again the future – probably in a pretty significant way, too.

I write a prayer to God every night. I’ve been doing it for a couple months. Tonight is the first night I’ve made the statement that I want to be saved. I can’t believe I’ve been writing prayers for months now and this is the first time I’ve actually said I want to be saved. It’s certainly a turning point in my life. Especially considering how long I not only didn’t want to be saved, but I didn’t want to go on living. I’m so glad that God has found a way into my life and that I can trust him to do for me what I cannot to do for myself. He is my rock, my savior and my guiding light.

C sent me a really great text the other day. She said: You have all the resources you need to take the next step. It’s so true, too. I get so caught up in what the step after the step 4 steps down the line might be. I forget that I don’t need to know how everything is going to work out. I just need to know that it is working out. And really, it is working out. The next step is going to Istanbul. That’s the only step I need to worry about taking right now.

I feel like I had to lose something very precious to me in order to appreciate it even more once I’ve gotten it back. I’ll never take the love in my heart for granted again. It’s a gift from God that I must cherish, appreciate and share every day. I plan to do that going forward. Woohoo!