I have to use a VPN to write an update on here because wordpress is blocked in China. I don’t actually have a VPN so I visit one that offers a free trial every night. Lately it’s only been giving me 10 minutes of time for the free trial. Tonight it gave me 20 – looks like it’s time for a party! Woohoo!

I do not believe in reality. None of what I see around me is real. This world that I appear to inhabit is not real. What I see with my eyes, hear with my ears and the sensations I feel with my body are not real. I think the world in which we live has been constructed to give us humans the impression that we are living in a real world. I really want to learn more about this and develop this thought further. I highly doubt I’m the only one that’s come to this same conclusion. I hope to get the opportunities to explore this further in the future. I have a feeling I will. And with any luck, that day won’t be too far away. Here is what I wrote earlier today while thinking about all of this:

I find it sad that we, as humans, have this incarnation on Earth as conscious, carbon based energy and so many don’t know what it means to feel alive. To be alive and to act like the living. We have this lifetime, possibly future and past ones already lived, in order to feel and experience joy in our human hearts. To love, to dance, to feel the wind and the energy of the universe on, in and through our bodies, yet many refuse to take advantage of it. I certainly did for a long time while I refused to live my life. I’m not going to make the same mistake going forward.

That’s really how I feel about it. And despite the belief that none of this is real, I still have to play the game. At least for now. I need an income, I need money and a place to rest my head at night. I do need to continue playing this game, but I don’t need to believe in the game. And this knowledge will certainly influence the way I choose to live the rest of my life. Truths can be hard, but they are also a path to liberation. A liberation that I’m finding and developing through a better understanding of the world (or rather the illusion of the world) around me. I will awaken from this dream eventually. Sooner or later I’ll be able to see with more clarity. It may not be in this current incarnation, but it will happen.

I will not remain a prisoner forever. Freedom is at hand.