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I prayed this morning before going to work. I try to pray every night before going to bed, but praying in the morning isn’t something I’m in the habit of doing. As I was getting ready for work, I was thinking about how I really wanted to have a better day teaching today. Yesterday was very tough. In fact, the last couple weeks have been quite tough. I can’t seem to get myself into a great place mentally to teach the classes which makes them all difficult. My job isn’t that demanding or hard. I’m able to have fun with it if I want, but when I’m in a bad mood and don’t want to be there class seems to drag on forever. So, today the idea of praying popped into my head and before I left my apartment. I got onto my knees and asked for help making it through the day. I asked for help maintaining a positive attitude and having fun with my classes. While walking to work I ran into a Chinese TA from my school that I’m friends with. I explained to her that I’ve been having a lot of trouble with it all lately, but I’m still trying. It was nice to have that conversation with her. And, as it turned out, classes went much better today than they have been in recent weeks. So much better in fact that I wondered if I shouldn’t stick it out in China teaching for a while longer. I know in my heart that’s not the right path for me, but the thought did cross my mind. I’m extremely grateful to have had a better day teaching.

My parents will be here in a week! I’m so excited to see them! I can’t believe it’s been 10 months since I last shared physical space with them. I’ve decided I should tell them I’ve put in my notice to leave this job. I know it’ll worry them, but keeping it from them is starting to weigh on me. I had planned to just tell them when they get to China, but I think I should do it before then. Hopefully sometime this week.

Ok, that’s all. My computer is threatening to shut down for some updates and I don’t want to get caught mid post by that. This makes 3 days in a row being back KP. I’m grateful to have these short moments where I can talk to you about what’s going on in my life. Hopefully we can delve into something a little more meaningful than the boring, mundane day to day soon.

PS. I really hope Istanbul works out, but am I just trying to return to the scene of the crime? Will it really be beneficial? Would I be better off finding a place I’ve never been and starting fresh? Budapest? Prague? I guess we’ll see. I don’t have to make any decisions right now, but I will want to start thinking about it soon. I doubt it will be too tough to coordinate an apartment, but I’d rather not have any surprises. I’m soooo excited to be somewhere other than Asia. Yay!