Hey KP!

It’s been a while. I haven’t forgotten about you. I started doing this artist’s way workbook which has me journaling every morning. As a result, I haven’t been visiting you as often.

Can we talk?

I feel like I’ve lost my way. I don’t know what to do anymore. Actually, this feels suspiciously like a spiritual bottom. I’ve been immersing myself in spiritual thought and ideas, but it’s only made me feel further away from God or source, rather than closer to it. I want to surrender. I need to surrender. I just don’t know how. Please show me the way.

And, if at all possible, please point me forward on the next segment of my journey. I need to get out of Bangkok ASAP. I’ve severely soured on this place. It’s just unclear at this point what I should do next. You’ve gotten me through so many things KP any help on this would be greatly appreciated. I’ve passed my breaking point as far as being in Bangkok is concerned.

I’m also lonely. So very lonely. Please help.

I just don’t know what the fuck I’m doing anymore. My life has no purpose and I don’t know how to find it. I’m not sure things will ever be ok. I can hope they will be and try to stay positive, but I don’t think I can keep this up much longer. It’s just not working any more.

It feels like I’m waiting for someone to save me from this situation – from myself, really. I have a feeling that’s not going to happen. It’s time I save myself.

Gratitude List:
KP
Dan
The desire to surrender and turn my will over