I went out to eat with my friend who is letting me stay with him and couldn’t help but think I just don’t want to be here anymore. I just don’t want to be doing this anymore. The problem is, the thought of going home with no prospects for any type of work and trying to figure that situation out would be a nightmare. Plus, I don’t really want to go home, but I do want to be settled somewhere and have my own space and find a routine with things. Routines can be so boring and mundane, but I’m finding not having one to be quite difficult as well. I also worked out today and made the mistake of not doing a great job eating (or rather I went a long period without food) which always throws off my mindset considerably. I think that tomorrow will go better. I hope that tomorrow goes better. I don’t want to have another day like today.

Gratitude List:
Squats
Running
Attractive men and some things to think about