I don’t want to die anymore. It’s a pretty remarkable thing. A few months ago I told my story at an AA meeting. I remember telling them that I don’t have memories of a time that don’t include memories of wanting to kill myself. From as far back as my memories go I remember having suicidal thoughts. That is a truth I know to be true today. The thing I realized, though, was that it may have taken me nearly 3 decades, but I finally do have memories from a time that don’t include memories of wanting to kill myself. They don’t start until I’m 28 years old, but I’m extremely grateful to finally have them.

Gratitude List:
Not wanting to die anymore
Memories of a time that don’t include memories of wanting to kill myself
Being back in Bkk