When my life feels like it’s out of control I tend to focus on how unhappy I am with how I look. The past couple of years this has mainly manifested in my obsession with having a tummy tuck. I feel much better than I did this morning. I don’t feel overwhelmed anymore. I feel like I can handle life. I do still plan to look into this plastic surgery and see if it’s something I want to do, but it’s not something I need to do and it’s certainly not something I plan to do unless I feel pretty comfortable with the situation. I know I would benefit greatly in terms of self esteem if I go through with it, but I’m not desperate enough to take a huge gamble with it all. It feels like a weight has been lifted. I think it was partly just the post CELTA depression that was getting to be as well.

I had a really relaxing day today. I went to the Jim Thompson house which was really neat to see. I then had a 2 hour massage and was debating going to a meeting or watching a movie. Because of the rain I opted for staying dry and seeing a movie. I’ve seen nearly all of the movies playing in the theaters right now. I have no idea what I’m going to do when there are no movies I haven’t seen.

Gratitude List:
Getting the chance to talk with my mother and L on skype
Gaining a better perspective on my short-term plans
swimming