The last day of the course was yesterday. Everyone went out afterwards to the pub and drank. I went for a couple of hours. I’ve been mainly skipping the pub on the weekends with the other participants, but I figured since this was the last day of class and the last time I’ll probably see any of these people aside from 1 or 2 of them who are sticking around Bangkok I went. I hate sitting around a loud pub where it’s hard to have conversation while watching people drink. It’s simply not fun and it makes me uneasy. I have a hard enough time socializing in large groups without having all this alcohol around. It was also hard because it’s made me realize that everyone else seems to have a plan and is going off to teach somewhere and I don’t really know what I’m going to do. I don’t have a plan at all and I started to feel overwhelmed and like this whole thing was a terrible idea. Just terrible. I feel better about it today, though. I’ve rented a room in a guesthouse for the next 9 days which will give me some time to relax and decide what I want to do. I plan to try to get this plastic surgery to fall into place this week and ideally have to surgery soon. For some reason it seems like it’s been a bit difficult trying to get the surgery in order. I’ve submitted online forms at quite a few places and haven’t heard back from them. I plan to start calling them on Monday and get face to face appointments with at least one or two places and make my decision from there. I’d really like to find a doctor I feel comfortable with. I’m ready to do this and the time is right.

After the surgery I’ll take a couple weeks and recover. I’ll probably rent an apartment in Bangkok for a month so that I won’t have to rush out of here. I’d also really like to travel around Thailand and the surrounding areas. If I can’t get the surgery to pan out I’ll put it on hold and go traveling. I really don’t see any reason why I shouldn’t be able to get the surgery to work.

Gratitude List:
Beginning a new phase of my Thailand adventure
No longer having to take that stupid shuttle
Having time to reflect and figure out next steps