I just feel like I don’t fit anywhere right now. My time in Minneapolis is done. It’s a great place, but it’s not my home anymore and I’m not certain whether it will be again or not. I love it, but as far as a way to support myself it really can’t provide that right now. NJ was a great stopping point, but it never quite felt like home to me. It really always just felt like I was passing through there. Bkk is crazy, frenetic and there are Asians everywhere. Everywhere!

I’m just feeling really homesick today. I’m so glad that my course starts on Monday. It’ll give me something to focus my time on and there will certainly be other people in the class who are in this same boat. Probably nearly everyone else in the class. It’ll also be great to have an apartment where I can spread all of my stuff out knowing I’ll be there for the next month.

It sucks feeling like I don’t fit in or belong anywhere – that I don’t have a home. It’ll be ok though. I’ll get used to this and things won’t be so bad. Once I make some friends and have some kind of routine things should improve. And really, this feeling is only temporary. It’ll pass if I just give it some time. I’m hot and tired from walking around in the sweltering heat all day which is certainly not helping.

Gratitude List:
A guided tour of the old city
Air conditioned movie theaters
Learning how to use the sky train