I met with a plastic surgeon yesterday. It’s expensive, but I have the time to do it now and I can put it onto a credit card. It’s certainly not a financially prudent decision on my part, but this is something I feel like I have to do to be able to live up to my full potential. I’ve felt the need to do this for so long now. I’m going to think about it and also check out a few other places to see if I like a different surgeon more or if there is much price difference. It’s scary to think about having a major procedure done while I’m by myself in Thailand, but it just seems like the right time to finally do this. My hangups with my body have been holding me back for so long now and I haven’t been able to make progress on my body image through therapy. I also know I’ll never be able to change my body through diet or exercise. This is really the only way. Plus, it would work well to do it right after my course ends because I can take a couple weeks to recover from the surgery before finding a job. I have to do what I know is right in my heart. Everything else will fall into place as long as I stay true to that.

Gratitude List:
A path forward
Only a couple more days until I’ll be in a more permanent place
Being able to explore Bangkok