I feel a lot more alive now that I’m moving forward with my plans in a constructive way. I had definitely fallen into a rut because of circumstances. This morning I went into NYC and applied for a 60 day Thai visa. Everything seems to be falling into place. Tomorrow afternoon I’ll go back and hopefully find out I’ve been approved for the Visa. Once approved I can buy a plane ticket to Thailand – without it I’ll have to be a lot more exact with my timing getting into Thailand since the course I’m doing is 28 days long and I’ll need to coordinate flights into, and out of, Thailand within a 30 day timeframe. This afternoon I’m taking my car to a place that purchases them on the spot. I don’t intend on selling my car today, but I’d like to get an idea about how much I’ll get if I sell it that way. It would definitely be less hassle for me to sell it this way than to a private party, but I expect they won’t give me nearly as much as I can get selling it on my own.

I’ve been lonely lately. The sight of attractive men fills me with this yearning to be in a relationship or dating at the very least. I suppose it’s a great sign that I’d like to get back out there and meet someone. Things with B are certainly over. Hopefully this signifies that the mourning period over the loss of that relationship is over as well. There was a guy on the subway today who I was very attracted to. I kept sneaking glances at him while building a life for us in my head. He was tall, lean and athletic. Just the way I like them. Hopefully one of my own will present himself sometime soon.

Gratitude List:
Having everything I need to get done before heading to Thailand falling easily into place.
Attractive men who awaken the desire to meet my own within me.
Being back in Minnesota tomorrow night – if only for a brief while.