Sadness. Sometimes it feels like it’s the only emotion I’m truly comfortable feeling. The only safe space to be found inside me. The emotion I’m most intimately familiar with.

I miss Minnesota. I miss the lakes, the restaurants I used to go to, the meetings I attended and most importantly the great friends I’ve accumulated there. I wish I could see them, hug them, chat and catch up. There really isn’t a lot for me in Minneapolis anymore aside from those friends. My time living there has come to an end. Moving on is good, but change – especially this change, has proven to be quite difficult.

I’m on the bus home from the retreat right now. I got a lot out of the retreat and I was able to gain some much needed clarity. I’m excited for where my life is headed. I’ve still got a tremendous amount of pain and sadness I’ll continue to work through in good time. It’ll be different now though. Now that I’m showing up for life, taking risks and setting goals for myself. I’ve still got plenty of fear to work through, but I’m taking steps and making progress towards doing that.

I’m excited about my future life. I’m also pretty happy with the life I’m currently living. I plan to continue to work on personal development – to continue to grow, to change and to transform myself into the person I want to be.

Gratitude list:
Changing, growing, loving
Letting go of old behaviors and thoughts that no longer serve me
Asking for help when I need it