I went to the gym again today. Today I did squats! My knees fared well. I’m hoping I don’t find myself in a lot of pain tomorrow and that if I continue doing squats they don’t degrade to a point where they hurt all the time again. I’m keeping my fingers crossed. I’m also planning on easing back into things. Tomorrow I’m taking off from the gym entirely.

As much as I love this Thailand idea, I feel like I’m rushing it. I’m going to sit back and give it a few days or a week and just mull it over. I certainly don’t need to be a in a hurry to get over there and I am enjoying exploring NYC and being out here. I’m also pretty homesick. Getting on a plane and flying to Thailand is certainly not going to help that situation. Ultimately it is something I want to do, but I know I’ll be best off waiting until I’m certain I’m ready to do it.

B sent me at a text today. It was one of those out of the blue, random text messages. I texted him back, but didn’t hear anything past the initial text. I’m feeling like there are a few things I’d like to say to him that will provide me with some closure. Mainly I’d like to tell him he’s a great guy and thank him for being a good sport about things. I certainly lost my head with the whole Istanbul adventure. But, I’m learning, growing and having new experiences. I can’t fault myself too much for that. I plan on sending him an email soon and saying what I need to say. The whole situation got a little too ambiguous for me and I’d certainly benefit from having things be a little more final. Who knows, maybe that’s what is keeping me from making Thailand happen as soon as possible.

Gratitude List:
Being able to do squats at the gym
Fellowship and meeting new people
Going to bed physically tired because of a good workout