I talked to my Minneapolis sponsor again today about my crappy NJ sponsor. What I realized after that conversation is that the reason I want to get a hold of my NJ sponsor now is more to get the last word than anything else. I’m 31 years old – I certainly don’t need the last word in this situation. I will readily take credit for my part in it all and I see how his actions contributed as well. I’d decided I didn’t want to work with the NJ sponsor anymore before he quit answering or returning my calls. I got what I wanted, just not in the way I wanted to get it. It’s time to let this go and move on with my life.

I’m beginning to wonder if I don’t have a gluten sensitivity. And by beginning to wonder, I mean my acupuncturist said I’ve got something indicative of a food allergy and suggested I cut out gluten for a couple weeks and see how I feel. I’ve found it harder than I thought it would be to cut it out. I don’t eat bread that often, but I find when I’m confronted with it I tend to just eat it. Tonight I went to a meeting and then to fellowship afterwards. Fellowship was at this guy’s apartment on the UWS. They ordered pizza… So of course, I ate some. Not long afterwards my nose got really stuffy. I’ve actually noticed other times, now that I think about it, that my nose has gotten all stuffy after eating some bread. It’s very possible it’s because of the gluten (I think). I’m going to plan an experiment for tomorrow. After the experiment I’m going to really be serious about cutting out gluten for a couple weeks and seeing how that goes.

Gratitude List:
Fellowship with fun, sober people
Spending the morning sleeping in
A possible new friend in NJ