Sorry to hear you’ve had to drop out of life a bit. I hope things improve soon. Is there anything I can do to help?

If you have feedback I’d love to hear it. Life has been interesting these past few months. I’ve struggled a lot in the past and right now I’m really just trying to release a lot of that and move on. So far so good.

My sketch comedy writing class ended a week ago. I liked the class, but realized that it’s not the writing I really want to be doing. UCB teaches how to write comedy in a very specific, rigid format and I’ve realized I want to do a lot more with writing than just comedy at this point. I also realized I don’t really have the writing skills to do my ideas justice and that’s been pretty frustrating. I’ve sort of been taking a look at MFA programs, but at this point I think I’d prefer to just travel for a while. I’m trying to figure out going abroad (Thailand?) and teaching English. Ultimately I’d like to spend more time writing and use comedy as a tool, but also write in a way that inspires people and is very thought provoking.

When your email popped up I went “Oh no, Cheri… She’s got to think I’m so crazy.” I’m glad I’m finally able to take risks again. When I started that blog it was really just a strategy for some personal growth. I never intended on sharing it with anyone. I’ve been crazy and I spent a long time needing to conduct myself in a manner that was impossible to construe as anything other than completely ordinary. I’m realizing I don’t need to do that anymore. I spoke to my psychiatrist on Friday. I’ve been off all medication for over a year now and she feels I was probably incorrectly diagnosed bipolar. There’s a lot of emotion surrounding that issue because of the way that diagnosis has profoundly impacted how I’ve lived (or rather not lived, the case could be made) my life over the past decade. I’ve got some anger, but a tremendous amount of sadness. I see how the system is set up and institutionally it’s broken. I truly feel that 10 out of 10 times someone with similar circumstances to my own would wind up having the exact same experience I did and that’s what makes me so sad. Hell, it didn’t just happen to me, it happened to both of my brothers as well and we all went through with different doctors at different times. The result was always the same. Anyway, now I’m rambling. I’d take any feedback you have. And please let me know if there’s anything I can do to help. I appreciate you being so understanding.