I’ve been updating once a day for about 5 months now. At times it’ll slip my mind to write an update, or I’ll get into bed and realize after I’ve shut everything off and just want to sleep that I didn’t make one yet. When that happens I allow myself to write an update the following day, but I usually will do it right away in the morning. Today, or rather the update I should have done yesterday, is the first one I’ve not updated within that time frame. I’m pretty much writing updates for 2 days tonight…. Right now.

The last couple days have been good. I met a guy! He’s super sweet and we get along really well. I spent essentially the last 24 hours with him – the majority of which was spent laying on his couch. Holding him and just being together. It’s been really wonderful. I’ve greatly enjoyed the time we’ve been spending together. It’s pretty remarkable that we’ve spent so much time together and I haven’t gotten annoyed. We just work well together. I’m going back over to his place soon to spend the night again and probably a good chunk of the day tomorrow. We don’t really even do anything except lay together and hold one another. It’s so intimate. Something I’ve wanted for a really long time, but not been able to procure.

I’m not sure where this is headed. I’m ok with that. I don’t need to control this situation or project out what can or can’t be in terms of forever. It’s truly a gift to be able to be open and receptive to the affection of someone else and to be able to return that in kind. I like this guy and I’m really liking this situation. That’s good enough for me.

Gratitude List:
The ability to love
Overcoming obstacles that have held me back
Holding someone who means a lot to me all throughout the night