Today all the food became too much. I’ve been eating much worse for the past few weeks. I know it’s mainly due to the stress of everything, but it’s finally got to stop. I don’t weigh myself regularly anymore, but I constantly feel gross and can tell when I look in the mirror I’ve been gaining weight. The last few days at my parents’ house I’ve been shoveling in the Christmas cookies. I feel like crap because of it, too. I am tired a lot more and want to nap and have been sleeping longer hours at night. I don’t know if that’s all because I’m on sugar overload, but I know that at least some of the behavior is to blame for it. Normally in the past this would cause me to over correct. I’m determined not to do that right now. My plan at this point is to cut out all sugar for a while. I feel a lot better when I’m not eating it and after I’ve abstained for a few days no longer really crave it. In addition to cutting the sugar out of my diet, I also plan on doing more walking since it’s really the only exercise I can do with my knees right now. It’s definitely warmer out in NJ so once I get out there I’ll start making sure to walk every day. It’s so hard not being able to exercise right now. So hard. I really do hope this is only a temporary thing. I can’t imagine living with this pain in my knee for too much longer.

So I’m back in my apartment tonight. Since I’ve moved all of my furniture out I had to make a nest on the living room floor with a few blankets and my comforter. It really shouldn’t be too bad sleeping and tomorrow my mother is going to help my clean my apartment. I hired a lady to come and do it, but she can’t be here until Saturday so we’re going to see how much we can get done before then.