I submitted my Norway video today! I really do feel it does a great job capturing my soul and portraying who I am. I sent the casting director an email after submitting it asking her to take a look and let me know if I should add anything. I’m hoping to hear back from her tomorrow. Ideally telling me it’s perfect.

So I’ve had a friend crashing with me for the past few days. He relapsed and got kicked out of his halfway house so I told him he could stay here for a while. He got back here last night pretty late and was clearly intoxicated. He woke up this morning about the same time I did and immediately left so I didn’t really get an opportunity to talk to him. I was hoping to catch up to him at some point today, but he didn’t come back to my apartment until around midnight. I had run to the store and was talking to a friend when I got back so I just went into my room to continue the conversation and he went to bed. Even if it’s over text, I plan on letting him know tomorrow that if he comes back here drunk again he’s going to need to find a new place to crash. I told him before he started staying here that I expected him to be sober and I don’t feel bad about telling him he can’t stay here any longer if he’s not going to abide by that. I assume he was drinking again tonight. It makes me really sad because he’s a really great guy. Funny as hell and I really want him to get this. It’s exhausting watching him come to Minnesota for treatment and eventually relapsing and going back East where he is from. I can’t and don’t want to do it anymore. I wish I knew what it is he needs in order to get it. I realize I don’t have any control over this situation, but I still just really wish he would get it. I think at this point I just need to let him go and figure things out on his own. I’d do anything to help him. The other problem is that he lies to me. I don’t know what I can believe that he tells me, which is probably not very much. As far as I know he’s not being honest with himself or other people. He’s not asking for help when he needs it and there’s really not a damn thing I can do to fix that.

Gratitude List:
Sobriety.
Future Adventures.
My wonderful parents.