I had a bit of an episode earlier tonight. I just felt really upset and ill at ease, but there was no precipitating event that I could pin it on. It was weird and not something that happens very often anymore. I generally feel good and my mood doesn’t nosedive like that ever anymore. I was tempted to blame it on the fact I’m seeing my doctor tomorrow and I’m concerned about how that’s going to go. It’s also possible I just needed a nice intake of carbs. I went to the grocery store and bought a pint of mint ice cream. It really did solve all my problems. I felt much better after eating the ice cream.

As far as seeing my doctor goes, I’ve decided I want the screws she put in my knees taken out. I mean theoretically it would make sense that once the knees are healed up to a certain point the screws she used to get that healing could then come out because the bone would have healed to the bone rendering the screws no longer useful or needed. I’m not sure if that’s really how it works, but I plan on asking her if she can just take them out. It’s frustrating, very frustrating, to be at this point with my knees. I can’t do much of anything with them right now and although there was no guarantee the results would be remarkable, I was definitely given the impression things wouldn’t get worse. And really, things have gotten worse at this point. I guess we’ll see what she has to say tomorrow. Wish me luck!