I sometimes find it hard to vocalize things I want – especially when there is a high chance of failure. The last couple of days I’ve felt like creating some drawings and have spent hours doodling with black and red pens. I really like the two pictures I’ve completed. I like them a lot, actually. I taped them both on my wall above my bed last night when I went to sleep and this morning had the crazy idea that perhaps I could try and sell them online. I know websites like etsy and others allow people to sell art they’ve created. I figure I’d might as well give it a try. I’m not sure what the right price would be, but I can mull that over. I’m guessing I spent about 2 hours working on the less complicated one and probably 5 on the more complicated one. I enjoyed drawing them, but would probably want to average at least $10 an hour to make me feel like I was getting a return on the time I’m investing in them. Unfortunately, I’m really not sure that they are worth $20 and $50 respectively. I also realize that just as I’m bad at vocalizing things, I’m great at undervaluing my positive qualities and in this case my artwork. Even if I could sell them for a price that would equate to around $10/hr, I am certain I wouldn’t find demand enough to sell an unlimited quantity of them. In addition to that, I’m certain if I was trying to support myself by creating this art after not long I’d find drawing to be just as oppressive as the cubicle I hate spending time in. It’s just a matter of time. The thought I have had, and although this is not probably as realistic as I would like, is that if there was some demand and I could sell some of them online I could maybe bring in enough money every month to fund living abroad. Provided I found a much cheaper place to live where I could leverage the dollar. I saw a one way ticket to Thailand in early January is about $900. My new goal is to create 10 of these drawings and sketches and put them online priced at what I think is fair and see if any of them sell. If I’m able to start selling a few of them here and there maybe in a couple months I’ll be selling enough that I could go abroad for a while and use this as a way to have a little bit of income. I’m pretty sure I could sell my car for at least some more than I owe on it which I could also put towards an extended trip abroad. If I had a few thousand dollars in my bank account when I started and I used this as a way to stave off the draining of that money it’s possible I’d be able to live for a year somewhere else. It would be a great experience. An adventure, really. One I’d love to have. I could also use the time away to write and perhaps see a return in some regard from that. So the goal for this coming week is to create more drawings and get them listed. Oh, and I should probably apply for some real jobs in Chicago, too. Blergh.